To change the world

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Yesterday while playing "The Ungame" for the first time ever, I was faced with a very powerful question: What is your greatest fear?

One of the girls I was playing with said she was afraid of dying young.

My greatest fear though, is not dying young, although that, without a doubt, is a tragedy.

My greatest fear is that I will die without really living. That I will check out of this life God has given me without having done anything of significance. In my "About me" I say something about wanting to change the world for the better. That is just as true now as it ever was. No matter what career path I'm contemplating at the moment.

I do want to change the world. All of it. Part of it. Some of it.
And all for the better.

Even if it's just one person's world, just one person's life whose a little bit better after meeting me.

In the end, that's what I want.

If I do that, I succeed. I fight the lies that the world feeds us, that one voice will never be enough, and I win the dreamer's victory.

And to die without accomplishing this? That is my greatest fear.

Always,
L.A.

Life- It's confusing.

Life. It's so...confusing.

Have you ever felt like you're just not getting it? Like you're missing something? Lately that's where I find myself.

Society tries to feed us all this...just complete and utter crap, and I'm not buying it. I don't care what the media tells us, I don't want to spend my life chasing after money and power. That's never been me. When you grow up the oldest of seven kids, it makes it kind of hard to be self-serving and materialistic, and I thank God every day I'm lucky enough to be a part of the amazing family I've been blessed with. I don't want the big house or the fancy cars.

I want...more.

There's a place where I'd like to see myself in the future, but how does one get to that point? What do I do to get there? Which roads do I have to take? Do I stay here at the university where I started this year and have made many new friends? Or do I transfer to the university where all my lifelong friends from childhood and high school are?

Decisions, decisions. These are the questions that ambush me whenever I have a moment to think. Making decisions is far from my strong suit, so for now I just wait. Wait, pray, and trust in the His timing, that's all I can do for now.

Wish me luck.
This decision is a big one.

Always,
L.A.