"Rejoicing in ordinary things is not sentimental or trite. It actually takes guts. Each time we drop our complaints and allow everyday good fortune to inspire us, we enter the warrior’s world."
— Pema Chödrön
Sunday, April 7, 2013
Friday, April 5, 2013
Dear husband-to-be,
With the right amount of tenderness, even a touch as gentle as this, from you, will undo me.
Always yours,
me
Thursday, April 4, 2013
Fear of the dark
In order to find love you must take a risk and put yourself out there.
This I realize.
But just because you recognize something as truth doesn't make it any easier to put into practice.
I've put an invisible wall up around myself. (specifically my heart) Most don't realize it exists. I'm too gracious for the average person to see it. I will befriend any Tom, Dick, or Harry I happen to meet. But if for some reason I feel my walls begin to crumble or something causes the ground on which they stand to shift...
I run.
(metephorically.)
(....well for the most part.)
The possibility of letting someone in far enough for them to love me also comes with the threat of letting them in just enough for them to break me.
That brokenness, the darkness, that place where rejection and hurt lives,
scares the living daylights out of me.
For God's sake, I've always been afraid of the dark.
This I realize.
But just because you recognize something as truth doesn't make it any easier to put into practice.
I've put an invisible wall up around myself. (specifically my heart) Most don't realize it exists. I'm too gracious for the average person to see it. I will befriend any Tom, Dick, or Harry I happen to meet. But if for some reason I feel my walls begin to crumble or something causes the ground on which they stand to shift...
I run.
(metephorically.)
(....well for the most part.)
The possibility of letting someone in far enough for them to love me also comes with the threat of letting them in just enough for them to break me.
That brokenness, the darkness, that place where rejection and hurt lives,
scares the living daylights out of me.
For God's sake, I've always been afraid of the dark.
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
A note to the man who will someday succeed in wooing me,
A helpful guide for winning me over and stealing my heart:
Take me to Barnes & Nobel. Browse the beautiful aisles with my fingers tangled in yours. Lead me to your favorite childhood book. Give me a glimpse of the little boy that is still a part of you. Buy a coffee for yourself and a caramel latte for me. Sit across from me at one of those tables hardly big enough for the books we've picked up to thumb through. Flash a grin that's just for me. Love Jesus. Don't take yourself to seriously. Make me laugh.
Until then,
me
Monday, April 1, 2013
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